as promised, i'm posting again while in a better mood. i don't feel GREAT, but better. i'm a little pissed at myself for sleeping in, though. and i hate sundays. and i hate my backyard. it's been overtaken by weeds. i have a weed eater, but i have no energy. i'm at least going to have to clear myself a path today, though.. if i want to hang any laundry on the line.

anyway, i should really go get busy. fuckin' sundays. perhaps i'll post again later.. i just realized i forgot to talk about gabe's birthday (presents).

# posted by aja @ 12:18 PM

and right now, i feel like a wretched, undesirable shell of a woman. so what else is new?

of course, i don't always feel this way. but i never feel like blogging when i'm feeling good about myself or anything else. so, get used to more of the same cranky bullshit from the same ol' me.

i need a vacation. anyone out there feel like letting me crash on their couch? preferably in a city near a coast. seems i always want to head for the ocean when the chips are down.

anyhow, i'll try to post again soon.. when i'm in a good mood. no worries.

# posted by aja @ 9:18 PM

i've come to realize that everything i'm feeling has been felt before. by me, by you, by someone. when you're hurting, you think that NO ONE has felt this way before. you think there's NO WAY you'll get through this one. lies. how did i come to discover this? well, let me tell you.

at any given moment on any given day, i can listen any number of a large handful of songs that can very accurately express what i am feeling. these people don't know me. how do they know EXACTLY how i'm feeling? it's easy. everyone's been there. i tell myself that my situation is SO FUCKING UNIQUE, but i fail to remember that the emotions attached to the situation are not unique. i've felt them before. i'm sure i'll feel them again.

i think instead of trying to blog, i'm just going to post lyrics. at least the song lyrics won't lie. because i always lie here. seriously. of course, i HATE those goddamned fifteen-year-old girls who post lyrics all day.. but I promise, if I start doing it, you can at least be sure you won't be seeing any ani difranco or fiona apple.

audio: cranberries- linger

# posted by aja @ 9:56 PM