i'm kind of sort of drunk right now. yet, i thought blogging would be a FINE idea. i'm obviously too bored for my own good. i'm really entertained right now by my typing abilities. i'm pretty fucking awesome.

here's the thing. i was drunk LAST night, too. i must be bored. it's not like i planned on it. i just decided to have one drink.. and then bam. i've had 3 or 4 and i'm blogging.

i woke up this morning with the faint taste of cloves on my lips. did i smoke cloves last night? my ashtray says i did.

what else did i do last night?

when i pried my eyes open this morning, the taste in my mouth told me i made out with a zombie. my aching body told me i was run over by a truck. and my irc/aim logs told me.. NOTHING. because i make a point not to save any conversations from the nights i decide to get drunk on the internet. :P

so here i am. kind of drunk. i'm messaging everyone i know. thankfully, a few people are still awake to entertain me.

seriously, my typing is fucking AMAZING.

i saw my mom tonight. we basically decided that christmas was canceled, and she said she hoped that i'd go out of town around the holidays or hang out with some friends so that she wouldn't feel bad. christmas is for the birds, anyway. when i was a kid, it rocked because it meant presents and at least 2 weeks off from school. i'm an adult now, and it doesn't mean shit. i have no kids to buy presents for. i have plenty of friends i could shop for. too bad i'm fucking broke all the time. i don't know. i'm pretty bitter about the holidays. i thought about driving myself to the grand canyon over christmas. the south rim, of course. that could be pretty great. i think sammy is going to be in town sometime around the holidays, though. i'd hate to miss his visit becuase i decided to go on a lonely adventure to one of the wonders of the world.

i swear, i'm a million times happier than i've been in years. i know you might not believe that, since i'm drunk by myself and bitching about christmas, but it's true. so if i don't seem happy now, think of how i must have been feeling 6 months ago. pathetic, eh?

ANYWAY. i'm completely unhappy with myself right now, yet somehow, completely okay with that. i am not exactly sure what that means riight now, but it's fan-fucking-tastic. seriously.

okay, i don't even know what's going on right now. i'm talking to people online, trying to blog, trying to drink water and listening to interpol.

i should really. really. go to bed.

audio: interpol - public pervert

# posted by aja @ 2:30 AM